got something must lose something? is destiny? is life? I'm not sure. When I get a chance which I expect and wait for a long time, the obstacles always come with me and let the chance go. one by one, I loose my confidence on I can hold something which make me happy. I can't protect any what I love, I can't improve any what I need, I can't get any what I want. finally, feeling so sad to what I choose. HOw confuse of me? I want to ask for help by Jesus. However, I am not brave enough to hear the right sound from him. I am so worry to hear something what I don't want to hear. I know I can't know the ending of my story because I am not the God. It's so hard to make desicion..........so hard to face .....so hard to trust... what a stupid me! what a fool~~~~ my dear jesus, please help me, please stand by me.......put everything on your hands....let me to get my answer...because everything of me are from you...my lord....... a hope from a small potato in youself~~~~ | 